Life Lists

I have rejigged my life list. Before it was prescriptive, and I was trying to force myself to become a better person through my list. WRONG on so many levels. Inspired by the always inspiring Nicole at Making it Lovely [yes I did use her lovely in my bloggy name] I made my list longer, more flexible and open. And it has a health warning attached to it.

I also set no resolutions this year. Because I use them like a stick to beat myself up with

Haven't run a marathon yet -  what are you playing at ??? Fool! You are TOO lazy. 

That is my delightful internal dialogue.

Amusingly, things that got thrown off the list:

101. Get a tattoo

81. Bring up balanced kids 

83. Go base jumping

75. Inspire other people to live the life they can only imagine 

64. Bartend 

62. Learn to roller skate

44. Create my life handbook

37. Gamble in Vegas

18. Marathon 

I am never going to pull off a tattoo and am more than happy to admire them on others. I am not going to set out any expectations for my kids [if they ever exist!].

Base jumping - I didn't actually know what this was, it just sounded cool. No 75 is so pretentious I can't believe I wrote it and I don't like drinking or gambling, yes I am a geek. 

Love my new list.

Mini masterpieces...

Yesterday I signed up for creative every day, a challenge where you try to do something creative each day. Just the ticket for getting my head back in the making game. This picture is the last creative thing I made, with a box of kids paints months ago. It is so easy for our creative side to get worn out, run down and out of practise. Mine feels like a flabby body part that hasn't been worked in months!!

Can you create every day? Sounds like a lot but itsn't really - can you sing in the car on your way to work, can you do a doodle in your most boring meeting?

Of course you can. Give it a go.

Check out my stuff on flickr...

A photo by lovelyyellowlife on Flickr.

Jealous much?

Today I got jealous. Ooh it was ugly. I got jealous of other people who have time to take care of their wellbeing. I got home, sat down and thought, hold the pony and wait for a moment. What are you saying? Are you saying that you begrudge others the chance to be and keep well?

Or are you really just projecting your frustration of not being able to relax and take care of yourself onto others?

That looks a lot like it doesn't it.

I find it really hard to loosen up, scream and curse the world. I can't remember a time I felt relaxed, not properly chilled out super calm relaxed. I read something the other day that said if you find it hard to sit still and just 'be' you need it especially. I am trying to challenge my usual way of 'plan everything to within a inch of it's life so that you feel in control and safe'.

The world isn't controlable. It will be challenging, changing and never able to be controled. So I am floating an idea with myself.... what if I ditched calorie counting, meal plans, productivity logs, fitness schedules, constant planning, thinking and just was. Do the things I like, don't do things I don't like.

How about it? I can't be the only control freaky planner out there.......

Hello again blog world

Hello.

This is a funny post to write because I think I'm just writing this for myself. And maybe my one reader. I have been away for a long while and lots of things happened. I was in a relationship, then I wasn't. Then I was single. Then something loopy happened.
I sort of fell in love a bit.
Just a bit mind.

I met a man - lets call him Mr C. I fell in love with him and for the first time, saw a glimpse of what it might be like to love myself. Big stuff.

The last four months have been filled with love and light and laughter. They have also seen loss and stress and changes. But I am excited... I've got the seed of a little idea in my mind and I think it might become something good.

Lots of bit sized updates to come.

image from pinterest